some explaining to do...

I think of myself as being a smart enough gal. I think I am creative. I believe I am a good photographer. What I am not is technically savvy. I have had the hardest time integrating anything together in a way that makes sense! I am working with someone to blend all of my places on the web into something that in cohesive...please bare with me! I have so much I want to share with all of you!

Could I Quit My Day Job?

    I was recently listening to a photography webcast and the person asked us to ask our self "Could I Quit My Day Job?" They went on to talk about just went into being a full time photographer and pricing with the goal of doing such.

 Right now I'd love to say no I can't not quit my job(a fact I would be okay with for the time being), but in reality I know in about a week I will be temporarily let go. I have a few options: A) wait it out and hope my company finds me another client or hours enough to be worth it both of our time. The company is not going under it is simply a lack of work to be had at the moment...I could not work for a week or six months there is no way to know  B) abandon a company that I really like working for, doing something I truly enjoy so that I can continue to maintain our income or C) I can step back into those stay-home-mom shoes that I loved and hated at the same time!
  side note:I am a full time student and that pays enough bills for us to survive but not to thrive.

    My current day job is an in-home respite care provider for seniors. I have worked with one woman almost exclusively and absolutely adore her.  She reminds me of my Nanny's spark and tells me stories from her upbringing in Germany...stories I'm sure mirror ones my Opa might have told had we been closer. Her courage,her love of her husband,her dedication to animals and animal rights,and her sense of humor all inspire me. I truly do enjoy our time together and will continue to visit with her after she is no longer in our care. Here are a few images from a trip her and I took to Fort Logan to pay our respects to her husband. It was one of those moments that left me speechless. I'm glad I have images to express the words I could never articulate if I tried. I was honored to be in such a place with her in that moment. She asked I take a few images of her with his stone,  not only because it would violate regulations and potentially the law but do to their highly personal nature I will not be sharing those even though they are arguably one of my favorite portrait sets to date.

Fort Logan, Colorado

Canadian geese have a persona meaning to me so seeing them there was extra special.She asked me to take this image specifically and I obligated.

She said to me "Now imagine a man standing next to each of those stones...what a sight that would be." It is an mental image that haunts me some but it also touched my heart as a former military spouse myself.

With the exception of the images of her this is by far my personal favorite of our trip.  A place of peace and remembrance with Denver in the far background.

    Losing my job might allow me to dive back into building my photography business and it surely will allow me to enjoy the last half year that my baby will not be school aged. My grades in school were fine while working but maybe I can turn those 'good grades' into strait A's.
 
   I heard someone recently say "If you can't make your hobbies pay your bills make your work support your hobby" and I had been taking that mantra to heart. The path I am with my degree program (not arts related at all) and with working were suppose to finacial open up doors otherwised closed due to income restrictions untill the day came that I could independatly support myself with photography.

   I am trying to hold on to faith that all happens for a reason and I will figure everything out dispite this bump in the road.

Fresh Twist's Best of 2014

Theses are my favorite images for each month in 2014. This is the current bench mark.The challenge is to better myself and have 2015's image blow theses ones away! I'm up to it!

2015 is the year of progress

In 2015 I will take charge! I will throw out was is broken and no longer fits in my life. I will cultivate years of hard work and see my dreams turn from just that,dreams, to reality! I will trust myself a bit move, love myself a lot more, and push myself hard towards an amazing future! I will look up from the dredge and see the hidden wonder all around me and I will be inspired!  I wish you all an amazing 2015!